I realise I'm more tired after exams than before it.

Before exams I'm mentally tired, but after exams I'm physically tired. It's a good feeling, being tired after exams. :P We here at IMU have established a routine where we just simply have to go out after an exam. It's akin to closure. As I walk the malls everything seems to be so far away. The exams, the endless formulae to remember, the slight nervousness unsure if I will do well (yeah, after 13 years of sitting for exams I still have it- I'm so ashamed :( )..... Everything just disappears. And when I come back all tired and worn out, my mind has successfully stored any memories of the exam period in the past. And I busy myself with washing up and then looking my purchases over. =P

Statistics has come to a close.

My second semester at IMU has come to an end.

As I reflect on this semester, I ask myself what have I learned in this 14 weeks.
- Nothing. I learned my statistics in a week- last week. I still have no idea what Physiology II is about up till now. One comforting thought would be I did a research paper (a very basic one) on cardiac failure. And I put in quite a lot of effort to actually understand the causes and effects of it, i.e the aetiology and pathophysiology. =P However, the research paper only took up 1 week all in all. Foundation pharmacy I have NO IDEA what is going on whatsoever. Simply because we don't have an exam on it. Anyway, most of it is crap about the pharmacist's role in healthcare. Next would be BM and English classes. English class was quite fun. It comes as a shock that I actually learned the most in English class! I'm proud to announce that I have a 100% attendance rate and I pay the most attention in English class. BM class was a total waste of time and money for those who pay their own tuition fees. But I am glad we managed to come up with a short but fun sketch on 'SEPET'. It was so much fun! And guess how long we spent on preparing the sketch? A mere 2-hour discussion (I think less than that) and the morning right before our presentation. Oh yeah, we spent some time preparing the slideshow but it was just about that.

And so, all in all, what have I accomplished in my second semester of university life?

I conclude: Almost nothing.



I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm getting nowhere in life. I told my housemate today that I find myself deteriorating as I get older. Life is a pursuit of 'happyness'. Pardon the pun if you haven't watched the movie. :P Am I getting any closer to it or am I moving further and further away from it?


I know life always gets better with a positive attitude and all it takes is a positive attitude to move me in the right direction.
But I'm not always up to it. I realise trying to be think positive is like wearing a mask. Your refusing to acknowledge what your heart actually feels doesn't mean the thoughts will go away. They just remain there, lurking in the dark recesses of the mind where you dare not venture, and will appear to haunt you at your most vulnerable moment.